The Hardest Christmas.....and yet beautiful

I knew that the first Christmas without Harmony was going to be so difficult.  I wanted all my family with me.  Boyd and I rented a beach house in Oxnard California and all the kids agreed to spend Christmas away from home.  I convinced Mom, that her first Christmas without Dad was going to be hard, no matter where she was, and she might as well come with us.  She Agreed.  We picked her up and headed out on December 23rd.

On Christmas Day, Jeff and Travis gathered up the kids and filled balloons with helium, some for Harmony and some for Dad.  We gathered on the beach and we let them go.  We let the prayers of our hearts lift to Heaven with the breeze as the balloons floated lazily upward.  As the tears run down my cheeks, I hoped with all my heart, that Harmony was happy, and she was with my Dad.  I prayed that they were aware of the love I had for them and that I had a huge hole in my soul where I missed them.

We had such fun in the sunshine.  These pictures show a blue sky and sunshine, it looks warmer that it really was, but after we started pedaling, we warmed up and enjoyed the ride.

Alex started out riding with Uncle Jeff and Milo......there was a "crash" and he decided he felt safer with his dad.....

This is just some of the road rash that was delivered when the bike crashed......Milo was pretty brave thru the whole thing....sort of.

McPhie 1, Aimee and McPhie 2

The Lloyds

The Taylors

The trip was fun, the weather was glorious and my heart was lifted a bit being with the people I love most in the world.  I miss Harmony every.single.day.  I look at this sunset and am grateful for beautiful endings to hard days.